Despite my last post, I took the decision to get my head shaved one more time - take it all off! Since before my 3rd dose, my hair loss has been significant each day, especially when washing it - it made such a mess in the shower. Trying to stop the plug hole from getting blocked was tricky and then cleaning out the shower tray afterwards, rather depressing and time consuming.
So this morning my DH carefully shaved my head for the second time. It's as short as you can get it with clippers, the next step will be the razor for that smooth, shiny look, but it may not be necessary.
I did struggle with making the decision to do this, but I'm glad that I have. I feel like the balance of power is back with me.
So what d'ya reckon?! shall I get myself some more piercings and 'tatts' to complete the look?!
My kids are not very happy with the new look, my daughter is more curious and vocal about it than my son. "You look funny Mummy" was one of her comments, fair enough, I guess I do and I'm not looking at myself all the time am I! Its everyone else that has to put up with my appearance. I am not that keen on wearing a wig, I just think it looks so fake and the ones that I have got are not quite good enough! So I am going to look into getting a better one.
I've got a new book (Anti-Cancer) to read and after only a few pages in, its spurring me on to fight this fight properly. Take responsibility for my future. Everyone should read this book, I'll happily lend it out once I'm done with. If there is a way for me to stop this thing coming back, I am going to do what I can. I've got a lot of life to live, people and places to see, seeing my children get married and holding their babies - it's all ahead of me. I just cant wait to put this behind me and get on with the rest of my life! xx
