I was going to write about my Chemo Brain - its worse than 'baby brain'! But then last night I was taken ill, and have spent all morning today at A&E so thought I'd tell you about this little adventure first!
I have no idea whether I picked up a tummy bug or got food poisoning from eating a rotiserie chicken (not very wise on my part, but oh SO tempting!), but at about 2 a.m this morning I was woken with a start, made a quick dash to the loo and was violently 'ill' from both ends - sorry too much info I know. But this is the front line people! As today is my 12th day since my 3rd dose of chemo, I am on neutropenia alert. My Fast Pass (which rushes us chemo patients through the A&E waiting room) states you must attend A&E if you have diarrohea. Or if you have a fever, which I did. Before we rushed off up the hospital, I did phone the Helpline number and an Oncologist rang me back. He said to take my anti-sickness medicine and see how I went. So I did that and wasn't sick again, but then my temperature spiked up to 37.9c. In these situations its really hard to know what to do for the best. If you go to A&E you know you can expect to be there, waiting, for the best part of 4 hours, they might even admit you in which case you are there for 3 days or more, and no one wants that do they!! But if you stay home, hoping to ride it out, it's quite scary, as you don't really know how your immune system is coping with whatever you've got and in the middle of the night, I have on a few occasions been too scared to sleep in case I don't wake up! So really, if I have any of the symptoms mentioned on my Fast Pass I know that doing the right thing and getting to A&E a.s.a.p has to be done - it's just such a pain in the arse!! I am very lucky to have some fabulous friends locally to me, who I know will help with looking after the kids when me and DH make a mad dash for the hospital. This is such a relief. Good friends and family (of course) are worth their weight in gold. Without wishing anything bad to happen to my nearest and dearest, I hope to one day, be able to repay the love and support I have received from them.
One last thing - I think Nurses are amazing!!! There was this male nurse at A&E who was just so cheerful, courteous and GOOD at his job, that I couldn't fail to be in awe of him. When you think of what he has to deal with on a daily basis, it's amazing that he can maintain such a positive, happy attitude. It must be a very rewarding job, not in monetary terms of course, but rewarding to the soul. I came away thinking maybe I should retrain to become a nurse, but truth is, I definitely don't have the stomach for it!!
Hold onto your hats, it's going to be a bumpy ride! Thank you for stopping by and joining me for a while. I've recently been juggling (as all mums do) more balls than I am comfy with, and just when I felt like a professional juggler - BAM!! I get hit with this - BREAST CANCER!! I'm hoping that writing this blog will serve as some sort of therapy for me, to get me through this 'rough patch' ahead.... if it's interesting, entertaining, thought provoking or helpful to anyone else out there then that's an added bonus. If you like what you read, please visit again or click the "join" button below, and feel free to spread the word.